i've lost count of the days since i
last traced the stars across the sky
tonight, it feels like everything's alright...

Sight With Nothing to See

it's all you had to say
it's hard to stand in place
but it's hard to walk away
your eyes were shining like the sun
and in your shaking voice
the honest belief
there was more out there to see
more out there than me
I fought for love again
and you left me in the rain

Staring Through the Window

I kept silent and it rained for days... my insides were drenched,
but i guess that's the part of growing up I never wanted to learn...
-Underoath-

A Moment Suspended in Time

When it all crashes down
don't be one of the ones thinkin
about what you could have done

Just hold on.. I'll take you on a ride to nowhere..

Just Another Memory

We got the top down, starry sky overhead. The wind swirling around us. She gives up all hope of keeping her hair under control. That smile's contagious. A seductive voice seeps from the stereo and pulls us into a world where we're only half-conscious. The streets are quiet. Everyone asleep in their beds, living their normal lives, with their 4-door sedans and 40-hour workweeks. The two of us?? We're living proof that freedom still exists in a world of walls and boundaries. Everybody dreams of the time they were young and free. We're livin' it. This road doesn't turn for miles. I suddenly lose all fear, and let that other side of myself take over.. A car approaches from the other direction. It doesn't matter. At 150, you're nothing but a blur. "Close your eyes". I drive to that spot on the coastline, with the perfect view over the crashing waves. And in this moment, I imagine a world where we could be together. But I close my eyes and remind myself, it's just for tonight. When the sun rises we'll part ways again like we always do. And I'll be stuck wondering if this is all we'll ever have... It's quiet now. The sun still sleeps. And when she wakes, you'll be a memory...

Sleepless Nights

never thought that it would end this way
another day passed us by
and it came time to say goodbye
seasons change
the rain falls for days
and washes memories away

it's hard to place the blame
but you said forever
when was the day, you lost your faith??

february's a distant memory now
but even winter was never this cold
i'll watch you fly past the sun
and hope someday you'll find
the only life you needed to change
was mine

its 10 past 2, i lie awake
sleep's a hopeless case
and i can't figure out why
every damn song this radio plays
is about you and i

your silhouette is burned on these walls
another memory in this song
another reminder you're gone...

A Fateful Haven

Everyday is the same. Walking a line between living and only existing. I'm waiting for something, anything, to wake me up from this. Nothing but that 80-proof anesthesia by my side, my lifeline. The lights are dim, flickering on and off. I wander outside and see nothing but a blank, snowy landscape, without a soul to be found, like some crazy dream. I go to speak, but no words come out. Not even the sound of the wind, or a distant car passing by. Am I even alive at all?? I can feel my heart beating. But really living is more than just a pulse. There has to be a way out of here...i have to find a way out of here........